Moving Day tomorrow

Repairs done.
So much to move downstairs.
Already exhausted, and it's barely 8AM.
Fingers crossed we stay healthy and get everything done.
xo

Almost done

Monday night.
It's still raining, I just got back from work, and our apartment is almost cleaned out.
We finished installing the door and making the wall, and all our boxed books are safely in storage.
Tomorrow will be a big push to get the remaining everything downstairs, and also finish remaining punch list items.
Then Wednesday we meet the next caretakers of our home, and Thursday we move upstate!
So much inspiration for studio.
x
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Focus

It seems that when I return to New York, I often find myself unable to focus.
I tend to get absorbed into another frequency, over-obligate myself, and make choices that put me at odds with who I am and what I'm doing. I feel compromised, pulled in too many directions.
I make the choices that erect barricades around me; the calm and quiet I choose in other locations seems to dissipate when I am here.
And I realize I'm the one making the choices!
Even though the best museums in the world are here, and there are many shows that are inspiring and wonderful, I often find myself drained and forlorn at the end of the day. I am tired when I am here.

I would like to remind myself that I have a goal when I am here, and am working towards it.
I can't forget I still have a lot of investigation and work to do with my morse code pieces, paintings, and drawings.
I can't forget that I'm always an artist, regardless of external environment.

We rented our apartment and are preparing it for our next guests, starting next Thursday.
We have to pack up all our things and put them into storage.
We have to find another home.

I have a lot of debts to pay and some people to support.
Thankfully we don't have a family yet, or else this would be a lot more difficult.
I try to see the softness in each situation.

My father is recovering from pneumonia, finally.

We built the wall yesterday, and today we are installing the glass door.
Then the project will be complete.
I can prime and paint and begin to pack.
With grace and compassion for myself and for others.

xo

organize syllabus for:
Drawing Course
Art in Action (5-8), Czech Kids
& Creating Together (little ones)
print images for Father/daughter show
continue writing and charting Process Paper
finish portraits for Wendy
organize to show To/From Mothering Alphabet at local mother's groups to help conjure up sound for each symbol
play/purchase (re)recording devices
find vellum to make large scale contact paper
find removable plaster to seal bricks of college hall
continue...

studio work:
dry wall installation
door hanging - sharpened chisels and finding hammer.
taxes - re-looking at 2006 now...can't find all paperwork.
unfinished
Sloppy
woke up with puffy eyes and sore throat.
Grey outside
Door bell still needs to be fixed.
Punch list after lunch
Coveralls on
I burned my hand yesterday
Groggy - can't seem to wake up or sleep through the night
Have to pick up my boots from the cobbler
Lent a friend my TV for the month
Furniture almost gone

This week

My apologies for not posting so regularly - being back in New York has been quite a blur!

We arrived in the midst of all the art fairs, and were also able to move back into our apartment - after 6 months of being on the proverbial road. And then Rose and Claire were in town for William's opera (which was amazing!), and we helped facilitate a lovely workshopper dinner and slide presentation of their most recent work. And we found a renter for one whole year, which means we're moving again, and are not sure where we'll go as of April 1.

So work has been focused on moving out of our house, and maintaining a sense of calm in the sea of New York City.
It is very easy for me to become distracted here, and stay caught in the web of daily comings and goings.
I love my apartment, but I have to admit I do not love New York anymore.
I find it a great place to stay for a little while, but for the most part I am happy to leave again.

The dinner and slide presentation was a huge success.
About 20 workshoppers arrived and brought a lovely energy to our home.
The presentation of R&C's work was thoughtful, inspiring, and very beautiful.
I appreciate how transparent they are, how beautiful their work is.

I am always learning.

This week sheetrock and a new glass door arrived; we are installing it this week for our new renters on Monday.
Boxes are to be bought for storage, and we have to find a way to make it all fit in our small basement.
Luckily, workshoppers are looking after some of our things while we are away - the plants will find a good home, and our benches and chairs will be tended to.

I am happy to leave New York again with peace of mind.
And an open heart.
xx

illegal forms

lifting the space between

between our inner lines

legal forms

reading Sexuality and Space

"...she endlessly disrupts the boundaries of others, that is, men,

disturbing their identity, if not calling it into question" (335).

Extending the Flag

Performance 2008- still very relavant to me today. I ran my dress up the flagpole along with the US flag.

Art safari today: The Armory Show!