How not that

Still finding "how" to say things, not worried anymore that I am saying them.
It's frustratingly difficult to communicate sometimes when emotions are involved.
I try to consider the How, but often lose my breath or become frustrated because what I'm saying is not what I want to say in the way I want to say it.
Sometimes I want the people I'm speaking to to magically read my thoughts so I don't have to say anything at all!
Growing pains with friends...