This is how I read

this is how I read.

I carry a dictionary and sketchbook with me whenever I read anything.

The dictionary is to look up words I don't know, and the sketchbook is to record, to draw, to visually understand what I am reading. It's also been a way to unconsciously deal with anger and loss. 

I have always kept these sketches private, hidden them in flat files, judged them for not being something else, and judged myself for not being smarter, more intellectual, etc. However, at the workshop last summer, I understood them in a very different way. And since then I've tried to understand more deeply what they have revealed to me:  placing two aspects of the same thing in the same space.  basta.