Also, as we talked about time collapsing and the ever present, I found my scattered notes from JFC and they are so very pertinent to what is happening. (I was dealing with the death of my grandfather with whom I sat through his process of dying a year and a half ago.) All thoughts on the following pages are so relevant and applicable, I had to sort through them and post them for my own clarification.
Let's talk soon,
existing without sticking, suspending
My grandmother forever wrapped (wraps) her knees for the pain,
blaming grandfather (not any more)
Grandmother made the whip
I didn't find the ends
Allow for the gap.
in the cup
(the cup exercise: focusing on an object, seeing its infinite manifestations)
polishing the floor, with cup in mind rear: process
not holding on, not fixing in place, flowing
sound of feet slipping and sliding on studio floor
(word exercise; I chose maybe. Focus on the word, see its infinite manifestations)
Ali energy, present and not yet material.
Allowing 'mistakes' to be, exist in
the space outside
allowing that space where the gap can happen
May be masculine and feminine
May be communist and democrat and...
May be old and young
May be an other
maybe
maybe cup is grandpa
maybe there is no birth and death
maybe clean and dirty
clean is a condition of dirty
maybe solid and liquid
what else?
Alenka drawing gecko on rear of the previous sheet.
change expression to +
infinite impressions remain
a journey through personal history
two sides of me (of joy)
(layered on top of) two side of me (my brain) that didn't get along
between feminine and masculine
change expression to +
(here I think of ANi's smile in all photos, how such a positively expressive soul, can hold such darkness and sadness.)
murky (unsettled)
-clay at bottom of cup in water
added water reshuffles particles
drawing and cleaning
no difference.
may be possible
melting the cup
grandmother's china lost (buried) and substitutes for a pebbled road
Grandma's beads who is cup?
organized by the cup what am I?
clusters of beads organized by relative size of the cup who thought up cup?
grandma's china (Grandma liked [s] little cups)
soiled (painted) cups cultural, social implications
(painted with clay) CZ ceremony around drinking from a cup
always with a saucerstatus with a cup
flipping cup and saucer
on his head
playing cup
bodily interaction with cup
stacked cup spine (reminds me of Haley M. painting in 4B)
colors of the cup sitting still with
clay- dropping cup into clay, seeing the impressions fading impressions of a cup in clay
suspended in water/sprinkle with water side to side
top and bottom
sound of the movement
-sound of beads dropping and rolling in the cup
-sound of cup running along a guitar string
remains
Grandpa remains
(notes from his death bed)
video water spilling over cup, carrying his remains (impression remains)
(reverse of the known)
drinking remains
cleaning the studio
with the shape
of the cup
cleaning tools 2
cleaning tools 1
(painting with clay and leftovers
(Artists workshop: Hands-on sacred geometry and theory for a visual artist)
-architecture (sivine geometry durrounds
-geometry around the heads of people
-painting with the ground
(and whatever sticks)
Imprints
infinite impressions
top/bottom handle the handle
(imprints in combination with grandma's cloths- [crochet])
the most I could do is sit there and hold his hand
Impressions-
sitting with death, sitting with communism
memories? on (communism)
non-aiming(?)
mixing my play with grandparent's objects
and watching and listening for other things to come in
-sitting death- with/communism
do memories create one?
how do the memories function in the present
-hold something from the past is to hold them?
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